Everything in my life has been a lesson. Every existential crisis. Every silent choice. Every intense occurrence that fragmented my being, has happened for a reason. To solidify the belief that everything is energy. That could be the truth or it could be the threads of my own confirmation bias. I am the way I am for a reason; you see, I like to consider myself a realist, so my truth is derived only from what I’ve seen and experienced and only from what my mind draws up.
A few years back. I fell sick. There were these strange growths on my hand and as normal as they were, mine didn’t go away for years. So, I thought it was something worse. My mom said there was nothing wrong, so she didn’t take me to hospital, she has her own fear of hospitals. But you know, the mind works how the mind wants to work. So, for years I went down spirals of research. With an intense belief that if I did not get this fixed. I would die. So, they grew. And they multiplied. More and more each month. Each worry slowly becoming a reality. They grew and multiplied and took every ounce of my sanity away. Anxious spirals that etch away into the joy in my life. Eventually, my dad took me to a doctor. A man with a kind face who told me that the growths were harmless and would normally go away on their own, but he would schedule a surgery to remove them for me since they bothered me a lot. I kid you not. It wasn’t even a week later, that the growths started to fall off and my hands began to heal. Two weeks later on my pre-surgery consult, I showed my doctor my hands and everything had fallen away. He joked that he had a magic touch. Maybe, but the more plausible answer, everything is energy, the body is a vessel through which we channel consciousness to craft reality and whatever we feed our energy into eventually bleeds and materialises into physical reality.
You see, the mind, or consciousness rather, is our biggest blessing and the biggest curse. Whatever you will to happen, either consciously or unconsciously, will manifest into your physical reality. Like when you want to listen to certain radio stations, you tune into their frequencies and suddenly you’re listening to the voice of your favourite radio host. All frequencies exist at once based on the breadth of your perception. In our physical world, based on your distance to the source frequencies that broadcast the radio stations, you can tune in to the multitude of radio stations offered within a specified radius. The closer you get to source energy, or the true ‘God’ – not the Gods that come from the physical constructs of this earth, which are the manifestations of the minds of other humans meant to coerce you into boxes and prisons of your own making – the closer you are to true source and essence of the universe, the closer you are to your true self, the more existence opens up to you. Bursting forth like a flower in the driest desert to radiate the true passion and beauty of existence.
The brain is an antenna that receives and broadcasts your soul as well. It is a carefully constructed machine. You can only perceive a soul if it is fated that you come across them. Whether a stranger on the street or a lifelong love, your frequencies align and contact is made. There’s a story I want to tell you, totally unrelated to this but funny if you get past the traumatizing part. I will tell, with the hope that you will find some form of meaning at my expense. When you refuse to learn your lesson and listen to the universe, some hard consequences are in store for you, like they were for me.
A few months back, on a beautiful afternoon, I woke up. As usual, there were thoughts flowing through my mind. Buzzing away. At any given time, there are multiple threads of thought in my mind. I remember pausing and trying to decide what was going to be my first thing to do for the day. Gym. Yes. But I was too lazy to dress up and leave the house. Breakfast. Absolutely. Then a thought ran through my mind. Rang as clear and true as anything I’ve ever heard. Maybe I should starve today. Absurd. Impractical. Downright egregious. But nevertheless, I paused and considered it. No. Choice made. I laughed out loud at the thought of starving myself. So woke up and went to the kitchen to make some breakfast. I heated up some milk and made some tea. Came to my desk. Set my cup down. Opened my laptop to work. And wow, as luck would have it. The most amazing thing happened to me. My tea fell onto my lap and I wasn’t wearing any trousers. Hot liquid all over my thighs and crotch. How amazing. How great. Just what I needed to start my day off. My guides don’t appreciate the sarcasm but lowkey I will never forgive them for this. That was the rudest spiritual awakening I’ve ever experienced. Pain so intense I felt reality shift at every moment. It didn’t feel real. Did I really almost burn my cooter off. Insane actually. But in their defence, they tried to tell me, and they decided to stop gentle parenting me. So, I woke up. Now I listen to every absurd thought that crosses my mind. Now I’ve reached enlightenment.
I never planned on telling you this till later on, but I feel called to share. It is only you who decides whether to remain hardheaded or not. Back to energy. Anything you feed grows within your reality. Anything you pay attention to holds weight within your energy. You are the sum of all the energies around you, your friends, family, lovers. If you actively choose to align with them, you accept to be an energetic match and you imprint on each other. If one is sad, sadness enters your frequency. If one is constantly angry, anger permeates your frequency. The energetic construct of your thoughts flow to one another. That is energetic alignment. You choose what to feed and what to align to. Which is why I say you should take the time to analyse and filter your thoughts, because some thoughts stem from the energies of those you surround yourself with. As with everything, you give meaning to the thoughts as well. There is nothing good or bad, there are only frequencies that we feed and align to that in turn yield certain consequences that can be perceived as the soul sees fit. Mind over matter. Soul over physical embodiment. A cosmic dance that we partake in every day. So, guard your energy and choose where it flows, for that is the beginning of divinity. Be brave and embrace the entirety of the universe and know that you are Gods, all you children of men. God eternally flows through you. Say it with me: I trust the path that I set for myself, and the fruits that the path will bear.